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2009-11-12T10:37:00.000-08:00

I'm back.

My dear blog sorry that i ve ignored u for so long.

New sem has started and there are several things which i told myself to do in this new sem.

1) Go for car learing lessons and get license.

-I just get sicked of sitting on the passenger seat for more than 20 yrs. It's time for me to get
myself on the driver seat.

2) Do more exercise with healthy diet . No more lifts and take the staircase please!

-Yea, its undeniable i ve put on weight recently. I admitted that i have an awful eating habits.
Deep fried, high sugar, high cholesterol foods are all my favourite. I'm trying hard to quit of
taking all these foods which initiate a good starts in order to get rid of FATS !

3) Saving money is just all i need to the now !

- Okay m literally poor now as my bank left with extremely little amount of money for the the
very first time. Its time to trim my expenses and i shall not blame the debit card is inherent
evil. I should restrict myself anytime, anywhere, anyhow..

4) Aiming for a better grade in academics

-I still remember clearly hw much i fear of engineering subjects when i first come to MMU.
It really breaks me down and the thinking of changing course never stop from bothering my
mind. I was immersed in fear all the time when i look at the rigorous mathematics.

However, i hope that i have overcome all this with the helps of my dearest frens. I'm grateful
for those who help me all the way unselfishly and get me survived until now. And yet i ve
started to grow interest little by little in what i'm studying and i will try my best to score
better n better in future.

5) Smile always.

- Be myself n ignore all those meaningless thgs which might affect me.
Control the emotion rather than the emotion controlling me.
Think positively and always look at the bright side.

Nice smile baobrr !

p/s :
Attended lotsa birthday bash this yr as my friends ard hv approached their 21st.
Will be joining them very soon in couples of weeks. =)

OK.. it's 3.30am now and my cozy bed is awaiting me.
Nitez everyone .

2009-09-26T08:22:00.000-07:00

Exam fever

Finals is juz around the corner..
This time my exam schedule is rilly driving me nuts !!

3rd Oct - Telemedicine
5th Oct - Electromagnetic Theory
- Law of Engineers
6th Oct - Multimedia Technology
7th Oct - Digital Image Processing

Gosh...
I dunno how i going to survive for this sem..
No more supp paper start from this sem,
Means that,
If i fail any of the subjects i cant i think..
Sigh ~
24 hrs is juz not enough for me

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STRESSED !

God Bless Me =(

2009-08-30T02:09:00.000-07:00

I miss u girls

突然之间好想念你们,我指的是我中学的好朋友,
刚刚发现了她的布落格 - 缅甸女人 (李岫芬),
突然之间有好多感触..
想起了我们中学在一起的点点滴滴

她们是我中学最好的朋友,

如今我们都已长大,
各自都在为不同的理想奋斗

渐渐的
各忙各的
我们没办法象以往一样能频密的见面
但感动得是
只要我遇到伤心难过的事
她们都会出现,
给予我最需要的关怀,鼓励与支持

我承认我不是一个善于表达的人
也习惯把心事都藏在心里
就算不了难过也不想让人知道
很庆幸能有一群了解我, 一直陪伴我的好朋友
有时侯可能你们会觉得我忘了你们
但是我要说的是我从来都没有忘记你们,
偶尔我也会难过,担心我们大家的距离是否越来越远

曾有人跟我说过

'' 真挚的友情不会因为距离,时间而有所改变''

我选择相信这段话,也希望我所担心的是我想太多

"I miss u girls and i do cherish u all"

From the bottom of my heart

So near yet so far

2009-07-30T22:45:00.000-07:00

So near yet so far

That's how i use to describe the current state of my relationship.
Too many things happened n m at lost to handle it.
I thought everything will going smoothly bt thgs juz ain't lik how i was thinking.

'SO NEAR YET SO FAR'

this would be the best phrase to explain everything
perhaps wat i need is time,
to tell me wat m going to do for the next.
to let me realise the fact
to make a right decision.

Depressed.
I just need a way to release it.

2009-06-13T10:15:00.001-07:00

Goodbye

Back in melaka. Spending my last nite at my old hse, packing al my belonging.
Haih.my feeling is kinda complicated now. Thought i will be longing for my new room,new life, new space duno since when,bt when the moment to move approaching,
i feel kinda sad.I am leaving the hse, and all my hsemates.Somemore unexpectedly,
my place has been taken by another girl and she is moving in rite after i move out.
So fast ! haih...

Goodbye my dear hsemates. I gonna miss u al ~

Thanks for the steamboat dinner and the card from u al
I do appreciate it !

wingee,
my dear roommate, although the time u accompany me is not that much, bt don worry i 'see open' d lo. Feel happy for u as u hv found ur prince of charm. Stay happy & DO VISIT ME when u r in mlk hor ! Al the best for ur training.

Eejie,
The sleeping god of our hse. Don worry la, i stil will visit u al when m free.
Now my room is taken,so be prepared to squeeze wid me in 1 bed when m back ba!
Jia you for ur society thingy! DON STRESS and pls dont vent ur frustration on
mou mou =)

Caicai,
My online shopping kaki.haha.The impression u gimme b4 i move compare to now is totally different aa! I thought u wil be those quiet quiet type 1 but u r not.Friendly and v 38 sometimes. Hope next tym the joke i hear from u wil b a higher standard 1 aa.. Happy staying wid u too

Yi wawa,
My 'living roommate'.Haha, when i first kno u,u were a very quiet and shy girl.
But as time goes by, u are soo 'mummy' and can take care of mou mou very well.
As u said, from we do not kno each other at all until we can chat and discuss many thgs in living room. Quite sad that aft i move nobody talk to me d =( Tk care ya,
i will go bk often to be ur living roommate again =)

Nicole,
Pretty babe in pretty village.U oso kno u very cool hor?Bt nvm la i forgive u.haha. Have less time to talk to u or see u at hm oso. Hope next time u don so cool lik mou mou lor. Then we can chat more d =)

Mou mou,
Although at first u bising til i cant tahan,and sorry i hv beaten u up.
Bt u shud thx to the movie 'Marley & Me'. After that i started to like u more n more til i cant even bear to beat u now.Miss me o

2009-05-16T10:47:00.000-07:00

可怕的小插曲

我们见识到了昆虫的威力
团结就是力量
从原本的5-10只
演变成成千上万只蜂拥而入
它们就是飞白蚁

我们全家上下只能熄灯来避免它们可怕的侵袭 !

停车房和街道灯柱

这是隔壁邻居

两分钟后

注意 !!!

5 分钟后

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我的妈 !!!

真的有够夸张 !!
这时候我的hsemate已经牵着 mou mou 前往 '重灾区'

可怜的 moumou 一脸无助
" 我以后会乖乖的啦"

其实它是白蚂蚁的一种
俗称飞白蚁

是有翼的繁殖蚁

通常它们会在繁殖的季节傾巢而出

然后开枝散叶,成为新一代的蚁王蚁后

蚁后每星期可产卵超过一万只 !!

如果昆虫真的集体攻击人类的话, 那就真的是不堪设想啊 !

2009-05-15T02:26:00.000-07:00

射手座

射手女生可能永远也不会知道自己想要的是什么，但是她一直都很清楚，她不想要的是什么。

她总喜欢做幕后的看客，冷冷地，静静地看着一切，在她眼里，一切都在她的意料之中，她并不觉得有什么是新奇的，如果她表现得新奇，那是因为她觉得应该这样做。她像一个看戏的人，永远置身事外。你不要责怪她冷漠，这是她保护自己的唯一方式。她像一只刺猬，随时竖起自己身上的刺，但她的刺不会伤人，她只是用来武装自己。她不敢要太多的爱，她怕享受完爱之后，剩下的只是加倍的痛。所以当别人对她过度宠爱时，她不但不会欣喜，反而会惊惧地逃走，她不知道怎样回报别人对她的爱，如果你得到她的喜爱，那是因为她已经知道如何面对，如何回报了。她追求那种君子之交淡如水的境界。她懂得爱人，但她不习惯爱人，她知道爱往往伴随着恨，而恨，是太沉重的伤痛，也是太容易让人疲倦的感情。她不想痛，也就懒得去恨，于是，为了防范恨与痛的到来，她只好选择不爱，即使爱，也是淡淡的，冷冷的。别怪她，她是真的不知道如何专注。

她有时也很虚伪。不要指责她，她之所以选择虚伪，那是你勉强她做她不愿做但又拒绝不了的事，她不习惯承诺，也不懂得拒绝，她最擅长的是难为自己。她不想你难过，只好令自己难过。她总是固执地认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，她将自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。她老是担心自己的行为会让别人受到伤害。她不知道，受伤的其实是自己。只是她不知道如何表现出来，她迷糊得像别人所认为的那样，将自己当成一个百毒不侵的人。别以为她很洒脱，很多时候，她其实是放不下的-——她比任何人都要敏感，都要细腻，但她不会让你知道，她明白，即使你知道了，也是无济于事。她的心是把握不住的风，她渴望像风一样单纯而自由。她不是不想平静，她只是找不到平静的理由，她一生都无法明确自己在人世要扮演的角色，她只有不停地寻求，寻求自己最终的目的。如果她找到了，她会毫不犹豫地停下来，从此放弃心灵的漂泊。很遗憾，她永远也不会满足，她的追求永不停止。她的心再累，无法逼迫自己放弃梦想，梦想是她唯一的支撑点。

千万别让她失望。因为她学不会原谅，她非常渴求完美，虽然她知道世间没有绝对的完美，但，她有绝对追求完美的执着。你若令她失望，她会不可挽回地离开，即使她的心在滴血，即使痛楚重得要压垮她的生命，她也绝不回头。那个时候，你在她脸上所看到的，是让人寒心的决绝。即使她还在你的身边，她的心也早就离你十万八千里，你看不到她的恨，但是你会感受到比恨还让人痛苦的冷淡。她的离开是心灵的离开。她可以在前半分钟对你好得让你受宠若惊，也可以在后半钟冷漠得让你不可接受。不要问她为什么这样善变，她也不知道。

当你看到她在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，千万不要迷惑，不管她看起来是多么的疯狂，她内心其实是冷静的，她比你们任何一个旁观者更知道如何处理快乐与悲伤，她只是习惯-—— 也可以说是喜欢将一切都变得疯狂。因为她觉得这是义务，也是权利，她是制造气氛的能手，她的一句俏皮话会让一切轻快起来，但她的一声叹息又会将一切都弄得很沉重。她总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与忧郁..她并不如你们看到的那么快乐，同样，也不如你们看到的那么忧伤，只是，她忧郁时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当她快乐时，忧郁又不肯轻易放过她。在她的世界里，盛着的不是快乐的源泉，而是她不愿在人前滴下的泪水。你看到的她，笑起来像一个孩子，你有时会认为她天真得像是童话里走出来的天使。但是，你若有心，你会看到她沉静时脸上挥之不去的忧伤，还有她的眼底，竟那么凝重地积压着一种看破红尘的味道。她只有在午夜无人的时候，才会完全地释放自己。她不会在众目睽睽之下表露她的无助，她的彷徨，她的沧桑。

她心里的，是永远流不尽的泪。你所看到的坚强，只是她在竭力掩饰的脆弱。

2009-05-04T04:43:00.000-07:00

Lovely Day Out Wid Family =)

My fatty bro was running fever for past few days n he took MC to stay at hm and rest.
He was overjoy when he was told that running fever couldn't get through the custom of Singapore and insisted to go out for a walk instead of staying at home and wasting his precious off day on WEEKEND. Everywhere was flooded by ppl bt he kinda enjoy the scene as he has rare chance to see it.

Somehow, i feel sad for him. =(

We bought lots of groceries and majority are foods and snacks of coz !
Guess wat? He bought total 9 rows of Yakults at one time.. SIAO !
And thats only for two person ,he n my mum !
Did i mention before? He used to drink 1 ROW of Yakults at ONE time !

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That's why he end up wid 5 months pregnant stomach now ..

My lunch ! Ajisen Ramen!

Back in JB indeed a great time for me,
can satisfy my taste bud as well as my urge to splurge WITHOUT using my money ! haha

AND THIS..

TADAA !! This is I got this only at RM 1 !!HAHAHA..My bro was SOOO LUCKY !
Now i understand why ppl oways said ' fat guys are always lucky and fortunate ' !
Thanks soo much , this rily brightened up my day =)
The feeling of happiness is so much greater than u buy it on ur own and u actually WON it !
I can even smiled to strangers when i walk :D

Seeing my family back on track again, everythg are much better than before, finally i can put my mind at ease. Walking until this step is not easy for me as so many thgs been thru. I cherish the every moments wid my family and i will try my very best to keep this going. Mother's day is coming, it took me such a long time cracking my brain wat gift should i give to my mum.

After this, I realised the best gift for her is her children can stay beside her, happily.
I found the long lost smile on her back again and i hope it wont disappear again.
As long as our family is happy, to her,

Everyday could be Mother's Day .

2009-04-21T09:34:00.000-07:00

I WANNA GO HOME !!

Suddenly hv the urge the go back to my hmtw soo much..
Through the phone i can feel that my mum do miss me alots..
She even wanna come mlk on sat aft she works juz to let me eat some homecook food..

Touched @_@

Recently so pack with loads and loads of assgmts and tests..
The weather is terribly hot..
Get sick of hawker food..
Keep on grumbling . . . . .

Terribly, I MISS HOME :(

2009-04-07T01:20:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY BAOBRR !

Yeah.. Baobrr is actually stand for 宝贝儿。
She is my exroommate and we went for the same high school also.
Never thought that i can be so good with her until we became roommate.
I seriously,terribly missed those time when we stay together,

I missed when we always sticked together like twins,
I missed the time when we squeezed in one bed and sleep together
I missed those time u taught me when m gone crazy over those mathematical difficulties.
I missed the time when we hafal formulas together on bed
I missed the time when we screamed and scolded by the boys at opposite blocks.
etc.......

Wish you all the best in your futures and seek for ur prince of charm as soon as possible so that u wont feel jealous for those loving scenes.hahaha..
Have a blast on ur 21st birthday !

Hope we can always be BFF, u know wat i mean..haha
Love ya..muaccxx

Valentine's Day @ Ipoh

2009-02-24T01:29:00.000-08:00

MY IPOH TRIP

There was a little excitement on me when i was told that i will be celebrating V Day @ Ipoh. BUT the real fact is his grandma's bday was coincedently falls on that day too and i was invited to the family dinner as celebration -_-"

Our supper when we reached : Bean Sprout Chicken

NICE !!

MY VALENTINES'S DAY

Our First Stop : Indulgence So Fake of him Awhh.. My tiramisu =) Hot Merie THE REAL HIM...hahaha The fragrance waft through rily turned me in to a salivating puppy.. However i din enjoy much for the meal coz the price was pretty expensive So i only ordered a small piece of cake Oppss..he quite disappointed coz his plan was ruined by me..

Next Stop : 扒王

This is also one of the famous steak house at Ipoh.

Every cafe and restaurant is flooded by ppl
FULL HOUSE in every single cafe

Grill Turkey Ham..
Awwhh...trust me u will like it so much if u try it

Fresh Strawberry Blended NICE NICE !!!

Sparkles brought us to the end of the Valentine's Day

2009-01-26T06:33:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone !!!

Wooohh.. Finally i can online as my hse doesn't hv internet connection..
sorry to my dear blog for ignoring u for so long..
Here i come to make it up for u k? =)

CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!
My mum is so excited for this new yr lor
as u can see she rily put in lotsa effort to doll upmy hse..
She even make al those flowers and cakes on her own! All HAND MADE !

For our family, normally we will stay at my cousin's hse and all the youngster wil gather to gather and have fun.

Oh mahjong is for sure but be frank i rily got bit phobia over MAHJONG d as i been playing for that since i came bk from mlk..I even hv nightmare of that when i sleep ! I mean it ! So pls stop calling me lan du po k! Zuuutt.. All other more healthier activities are canceled becoz everyone is addicted to mahjong !

WHERE IS THE SWIMMING & MOVIE SESSION???

My god, all frens ard are so Pro in mahjong.
Even the Master Ridiculous (Edwin Tsien) ,hw i wish he can be so hardworking in his studies rather than mahjong..HAHHAA
Yea..bt i do enjoy my holidays hanging out wid my dear frens
I even get to meet siau huan, say wei, SHAO NI (the damn busy one),
and jasmine !
LOVE U ALL SOOO MUCHH ! =)

On the fifth day of CNY, we hv ordered western buffet from and the chef will
come to our hse to prepare the feast on the spot !
Wooohh..sound nice rite?!
Okie..i will stop here and will bring all the pics here when m free =)

GONG XI FA CAI

2009-01-02T10:25:00.000-08:00

FINALS !!

Can somebody wake me up from my day dreaming?
Been wasting so much of time of relaxing in 'holiday mood'
Wandering ard,watching youtube,frying hot dog
while others r burning midnight oil..

CAN DOWAN?!

I still couldnt feel the stress of exam though m taking up the horrendous 'programming' subject
Wooh.. God bless me huh =(
okie..let me set up my goals for the following days n strive til the last
since it is start from tomoro means dat
ok..lets watch a drama 1st,den off to bed n get up a lil bit 'earlier'
errmm..ard 1pm lor.. yea..

hahha.. stupid luohan..u will regret it soon !

2008-12-31T11:13:00.001-08:00

2008 年的最后一天

时间真的过得好快
不知不觉我们即将成为二十一岁的成年人
大家都已经长大了
念书的，工作的，甚至于结婚的都有
衷心祝福大家在2009能过得更好，更充实..

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009

在2008 这一年，
开心的是能在大学里认识到一个能和我分担大事小事的人，
细心照顾，无疑也非常疼爱我，

可能有得必有失吧。。
这一年里也时常为了朋友之间的事而常常都情绪低落。。
总为了和朋友之间距离越来越远而伤心，

真的想找人分担一下却才知道根本不懂要找谁说
所以就更觉得可悲，就emo 到。。。
现在真的是该想通了。。

2009 年的我，
要好好处理自己的情绪，提升 EQ, 或许从另一个角度来想，我还是幸福的！

2009年的我，
应该要好好注意自己的健康，不然辛苦自己，也累了别人。。

2009年的我，
在学业上也要加把劲了啦，虽然一直埋怨读的不是自己兴趣，但既然选了就只好加油了咯。。也要对自己多点信心，相信自己 =）

2009年的我，
要开开心心，带着笑容的过每一天，人生只有一次黄金二十一，没得重来所以我会好好珍惜。。不要再重视别人的一字一句而困扰自己

2009年的我，
会是怎么样的呢。。

M'sia Saving Sales !!

2008-12-14T21:04:00.000-08:00

I hv planned to go to KL for the grand sales since last week..
On thurs right aft class off we go, until sat nite we will be bk..
Everythg is settled and baobrr even agreed to pass me her room key for me to stay over
BUTTTT
i totally forgot that i actually hv a test on fri nite !!!
My god..was sooo reluctant to call off the trip
We make it 1 day tripp..

@ Mid Valley

And i found a very lovely dress in 'ENVEE'
The tops & dresses there are just so fabulous

Awwhhh..it looks so dreamyyy..love it soo muchh

The next stop : Times Square

A little disappointment der coz its really hard to find a better looking top or dress
Though those are selling at the very cheap rate
Every shop is just like selling the same clothes
But luckily this restaurant saved my day.. =)

Paise i forgot to take pic of it until i finished half of it -_-
Regarding to the waiter this drink is the 'best selling item' of the shop
‘百果香’
means this drink is made by more than 100 different types of fruits
try it !! it taste nice & special
U will definately confused and find it hard to identify what fruit that the drink actually taste like
‘百果香’ indeed..

Yea..it is ' Unagi cheese baked rice'
Wow..it really sacrifices my taste bud and fills me up !!

Okk..that's my KL trip..
Off for lunch now..

Happy Birthday To Me !!

2008-12-07T22:59:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !!

I wish...

luckily its juz a little..

@ DreamBox

A little cake from my dearie hsemates ~

The biggie day of mine in the whole yr..

THANKS to my dear friends who happens to appear in the video clip..

THANKS for making me laugh until rolling on bed..

THANKS for bursting me in tears..

THANKS to my dear one..for the evithg u do..

Welcome To My World ^^

2008-12-05T10:01:00.000-08:00

Thanks to baobrr for teaching me on beautifying my blog !!
To repay ur kindness, i hv decided to put a picture of us as the very 1st pic of my blog..

TADAAA !!

This happens as we can't get to see each other often..

Awwwhh..so touched~
I do miss u too bao brr..
Oooppsss ~